Wednesday, October 26, 2016

“Formosa betrayed” and the Degar peoples in Vietnam

This is the weekly note I submit to my teacher today. It may the first time she receives the weekly note like this, but anyway, I wrote it when I am very emotional, so I don't wanna change it into the formal way. Actually, I wrote it as I wrote a diary, so I want to post it here.

“Formosa betrayed” and the Degar peoples in Vietnam 

Firstly, I want to sincerely thank you for introducing to us the movie “ Formosa betrayed”. I was very touched by that movie. Before I heard about 228, about KMT fled from Mainland China to Taiwan and occupied this beautiful land. However, I was not aware of how painful that process happened.
Even knowing history especially about the war is a very interesting topic for me, it helps me widen my knowledge; learn more about the past and understanding more the present. Still, it often makes me upset whenever it came to politics. It always has stories like KMT sending one person to kill David Wu ( of course David Wu belongs to other party and fight for liberating his country so KMT has the reasons want to kill him) and then KMT themselves tried to assassinate this person, even worsen they lied that they wipe out the Communist, but actually they tried to kill the local Taiwanese. It is kind of clear at the end of the movie when the commander said to the main actor: the great threat is not from Mainland China, even after Nixon change his attitude from Taipei to Beijing, but it is from inside country, from Taiwanese local people. I am so glad that finally, Taiwan has its own democracy. Nevertheless, anywhere, anytime war is meaningless. It came along with tears, blood, and pain of innocent people.
Any conquer brings with it both pain and reward. To be fair, KMT came to Taiwan also bring many resources from mainland China, for example, a plentiful antiques in National Place Museum or big investment from the US, I still remember in the movie: that guys on TV only be there for keep making money to Taiwan. Later I was thinking about Vietnam with its War. I suddenly remember about a title of a newspaper about Tay Nguyen, a highland area in the South of Vietnam where is considered as a Bhutan. However, I have not had time to read more about it at the time. Before I only was taught that Viet Minh- or Communist government of unified Vietnam did so many good things for our country, but maybe it is not absolutely like that.
I did a small research and knew that the native inhabitants of the Central Highlands are the Degar (Montagnard) peoples. Vietnam conquered and invaded the area during its "march to the south” 1975. Ethnic Kinh people became majority predominates the indigenous Degars after state sponsored colonization directed by the current Communist government of unified Vietnam. The Kinh people were originally centered around the Red River Delta but engaged in conquest and seized new lands such as Champa, the Mekong Delta, and the Central Highlands. While the Kinh people received strong Chinese influence in their culture and civilization, the Montagnards in the Central Highlands maintained their own native culture without adopting the external culture and were the true indigenous natives of the region. Before French’s rule, the Central Highlands was almost never entered by the Kinh people since they viewed it as a savage populated area, but the Kinh people expressed interest in the land after the French transformed it into a profitable plantation area to grow crops on and realization of its crucial geographical importance.
Montagnards have fought against and resisted all Vietnamese invaders through the time. Nowadays, they still tried to keep the autonomy for the Degar tribe namely The United Front for the Liberation of Oppressed Races (FULRO). I learned that the during the war, North Vietnamese Communists forcibly recruited "comfort girls" from the indigenous Degar peoples and murdered those who didn't comply, inspired by Japan's use of comfort women. Nowadays, Kinh people ravage the natural resources from the forests, minerals and rich earth here. That information was banned before until recently when free in public communication. And thanks for learning English so now I can find information from different resources. No surprise that what I read in Vietnamese from official government resource is very different with what I read in English.
Also since I went out of Vietnam, I had chance to see and compare with other countries, I read more about history and started to open my eyes with those events, so I understand that what a civilian was taught, was educated in one society may not the truth and I guess it never ever can be a whole picture. What happened stayed in the past, history was written by some people, some dominant group, we can never know. Of course, I will not compare what happens with Taiwanese local people and Vietnamese people in Tay Nguyen, I just so glad for Taiwanese that your population is bigger and you was very brave to fight for your democracy and your voice was recognized no matter strong the dominant group is. I truly happy for you, my dear Taiwanese.
What can I do? One person could not make the whole historical story and of course I myself can never change the whole world. Leader, control, dominant, conquer …still happen and will happen. However, I just want to live in a harmony world. I think I can only hope the peaceful world will last as long as possible. So I with my small lifetime in such a huge world will try my best to become a good early childhood educator so that those children will grow up with harmony ideology. John Lennon said: You may say I am a dreamer, but I am not the only one. Yes, I am dreaming
Thank you for giving us this homework so I had a chance to know more about your country, my homeland and my self-direction.

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Just because a beautiful life begin with a beautiful mind

Today I simply want to write out something so much, so I am about to go to Chinese class a little bit late and spend time for it. Sometimes we need to break the rule to follow our feelings, right ;)

Actually  my life is still going as normal, with full schedule especially from Mon to Fri, a little bit busy these days since I am doing a special plan ( God bless me, pls). But somehow, going through those days I found peace inside. I think I learned an important lesson about how to keep balance in life. Walking to the class in the morning, I was thinking about what I am doing, taking many classes in the school, seem like not enough I even go to Chinese evening class in one primary school. People might think I am crazy, yeap, I am learning crazy like a hunger with a huge interesting knowledge as if it is the valuable chance happen only one times. I thought about my dad, he often questions me why I have to work and learn nonstop like this, why don’t I choose the easy road and relax. Of course I know it is because he concerns about me and loves me, maybe he also understands that by doing this make me happy. What I want to write here to remind my self that: yeah, when you do something you like, you will never feel tired or wretched. And again, what others think about you is not important. How you're feeling with your own life is the thing you need to care most. I am just so happy with what I am doing now. I treasure the chance to continue learning many things, I treasure the beautiful books with so amazing stories I read. At this stage of my life I fully understand that the knowledge can make one’s life much more beautiful. And of course, I know how lucky I am to have a chance to cultivate it.
I don’t know, I just feeling so happy with my little thought every day. This morning I finally found the perfect road for me to go from my house to the school after several times trying. So now I don’t have to go through the main road with so many vehicle, buildings and noise. I will go through the rice field, lotus pond and some fruit field. I love the fresh air in the morning, I can inhale the smell of the grass in the wind. Just perfect. yeah, something aesthetic like this in life can lead you to some idea deep :v :v and I will write down the note in my small notebook like this: If you don’t like that road, try to find another one. It may a little bit further as normal, it may take a bit longer, but it will be what you like and it can help you enjoy every single moment. And more important, by living with what you like, you don’t waste your lifetime.
However, I also found another lesson not less important these days: You always can find the way to doing everything in your life with positive attitude. If it is something you are interested in, perfect, enjoy it. If it is something you dislike, still do it with regard that it will widen your knowledge about life. That is what you are looking for in life, isn’t it?

So, I think I am done here and need to hurry to the class, hope that the class will start late like yesterday >.<

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Đầy tháng chuyển nhà và nỗi lòng của bà già mất ngủ

Ôi lại mất ngủ. Cái bộ não mình thật là khó bảo, cứ có chuyện gì một cái dù vui dù buồn dù háo hức là y như rằng mất ngủ. Đã ăn 2 quả chuối trước khi ngủ rồi mà vẫn không ngủ được là sao huhu 2h sang rùi, mai phải đi học đấy. Nhưng mà đầu óc cứ lởn vởn nên đành ngồi dậy viết.
Nhưng mình sẽ không viết về việc hôm nay mình gặp Tina và prof. Chan xong lại thêm phấn chấn và có động lực theo đuổi cái mình muốn. Thay đổi bất cứ điều gì đã tưởng là an bài, là ổn định thì đều khó, nhưng có những sự thay đổi rất đáng để cố gắng. Mình sẽ làm nó, sẽ làm được, hi vọng với cả trái tim là thế. Hi vọng bữa sau có kết quả khả quan để viết lên đây nữa, để thấy rằng cuộc sống sẽ đầy phép màu nếu ta không ngừng cố gắng.
Thôi viết về 1 tháng qua, về nơi minh thích mê tít. Cũng một tháng rồi mình không thật sự viết bất cứ j cả. Dẫu rằng có thật nhiều thứ muốn viết ra, 2 tuần muốn dừng lại viết, rồi đến tuần thứ 3 vẫn thấy nhiều thứ quay cuồng xáo trộn quá, không có cả time để tâm tĩnh lại mà ngồi viết. Lạ thật, có những đợt lắm tâm sự đến nỗi ngày nào cũng viết cứ như thể chỉ có viết mới giúp giải toả những tâm sự ấy, lại còn viết tiếng anh, viết dài lê thê như đợt hè ở lại CCU. Xong lại có đợt như đợt này, cũng lắm tâm sự mà lại giữ tất trong lòng, chẳng buồn giãi bày ra ngay cả ở trang giấy. Thật là đỏng đảnh khó chiều lắm mà.
Tóm lại là thế. Giờ để viết cho 1 tháng vừa qua mình chỉ muốn nói về cái nơi đẹp đẽ nhỏ xinh ấm cúng mình đang sống. Uh nếu không có nó thì hẳn những thứ rối beng ngoài kia đã làm mình mệt mỏi hơn rất nhiều. Thật lòng mình cám ơn chị chủ lắm, thầm cám ơn chị ấy luôn luôn vì chị ấy đã sắm sửa toàn những thứ xinh đẹp. Không thể phủ nhận rằng sống ở giữa 1 môi trường toàn những thứ hài hoà cân đối xinh đẹp thì con người cũng hạnh phúc hơn. Chẳng thế mà ngày xưa suốt ngày chụp ảnh campus cỏ cây how lá, còn giờ thì cả ngày có thể mê mẩn ngắm nghía những cái cốc cái bát nhỏ xinh, cái lọ hoa vs mấy bức tượng bé xíu.
Mình cảm thấy mình được sống ở nơi đúng thật là mình ấy. Dẫu rằng nhìn lại 2 chị e dành đến tận 3 tuần để tổng dọn dẹp trang hoàng lại cái nhà mà vẫn thấy vui. Tại vì đồ đạc đã đẹp rồi nên mình thích mọi thứ sạch sẽ đến từng ngóc ngách. Thật may mắn vì chị ấy cũng hưởng ứng nhiệt liệt cái vụ tổng dọn dẹp này. Cảm giác sửa soạn mọi thứ đưa nó vào ngăn nắp theo order mới hạnh phúc làm sao. Phải nói thực là vừa làm tui vừa nghĩ tui đúng là sinh ra để làm con gái, thích quanh quẩn nhà cửa bếp núc thế này. Thế mà tại sao vẫn không ma nào nào thoả mãn tui để tui nguyện lòng làm những việc đó cho nhể hê hê
2.40 am Vẫn tỉnh như sáo, phát rồ. Hay đúng như bố nói: thài lài phại có cức trâu thì mới ngủ ngon được con ạ hahaa
Thôi sẽ lên fb up album mới chơi chơi cho vui. Phải đặt tên là “ little beautiful things” Mình thích lập album ảnh ở đây cơ, fb dẫu chẳng kết bạn nhiều lắm mà vẫn thấy quá xô bồ. Cơ mà hem biết cách nên thôi up vậy.