It seems like the more time I have for myself, the more things I have in my mind. I went with the book name “ Tiny beautiful things”. Basically, it's a collection of letters from many people to one consultant named “Sugar” about their life problems.
There is a letter made me I thought of my ex. Yes, I long for the faithful and intimacy partner and luckily I found him. Until now, after all mess-ups in life I ever witness, he is still the person who intimated with me completely and I did the same with him, too. So, yeap, I so regret that we could not make it go further. Yeap, I love that side of our relationship, but…i did not regret what I did. Then soon I found the clear answer from 2 women’s stories. They are pretty much the same with mine.
I was in the relationship with a good man whom I both loved and wanted to leave at the certain time in my life.
I am old enough to be considering marriage too, however, the thought of marrying him (at that time) made me feel panicky.
Yes, he is the sweetest person I will ever find, we had some things in common. He smart, handsome and absolutely crazy about me. and I loved him back too, though not absolutely before I decided to leave.
Back to that time, I struggled with myself, should i leave or not?
And yeap, Sugar right.
I decided to go, even though he is kind and faithful and dear to me
I decided to go, even though I could not imagine my life without him
I decided to go, even though I were sure no one would love me as much as he did
I decided to go, even though he adores me and my leaving would devastate him
I decided to go, even though I was afraid of being alone so bad
Even though there is nowhere to go and I did not know exactly what I would be after this…
But I wanted to go and I knew I have to go, even I cared about him a lot and he is hurt by that.
Yeap, it was the most excruciating decision I’ve ever made but it was the wisest one, so far, I think.
And I hope with all my heart that he is doing well and I wish for the best for him- Dearly
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